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The Miracle called TIRUMALA…..

IMG_0165TIRUMALA … the abode of Balaji / Srinivasa perumal/ venkatesa / govinda as each one of us fondly address is up on the hills. While Tirupati is what we commonly refer, the temple up the hill is generally referred to as TIRUMALA.

While I have a few anecdotes of the past, this visit which happened on the 5th February , is what i am sharing with all here.

Before going into the details, one must remember a vow made is made when it comes to perumal especially here at tirumala. Whether you intentionally vow, or by chance say something (as me and my daughter did), it is to be fulfilled. Willingness to fulfill is alone at your disposal. Getting it done is in HIS hands. The time, the method, everything rests with HIM.

So back to the story, around three years back, when a friend said he is planning to walk up the hills of tirumala, I immediately announced, I shall join him when he goes and upon my saying my older one too said she will join too.

SO THE VOW WAS MADE ( I truly believe HE sits on your tongue to say this ) !!!

Days and months and years passed by and we visited tirumala three times but couldn’t plan out walking up the hill for various reasons.

And me being an easy going person, had enormous faith that it will happen one day at HIS will and hence did not feel guilty about not executing on those trips.

Recently i took up a japa marathon. Yes to chant a particular nama one lakh times.

GOVINDA GOVINDA GOVINDA is what i chanted . We have a metal wall hanging of bust size at home of venky(as we fondly call HIM) .. or ‘hasmukh ‘ as the idol has the most alluring smile !!! Sitting in the sofa and looking at the wall hanging i always used to chant the nama. For some strange reason, a yellow dress which i had new used to be in my visualization. Then i decided i will inaugurate that dress the day i walk up to tirumala.

Creative visualization is one that comes as easy as breathing to me. But without being aware of the term i have been practicing for ages I believe.

If you havent read The Creative Visualization by Shakti Gawain please do. I resonated very well with the content. You may too.

again, back to the story, I visualized myself wearing that particular yellow dress and climbing with two of my most loving people, and shooting the video to speak to my instagram family. So we took off for tirupathi, and reached the foot of the hill at 8.30 and were still discussing which of the two paths to take. we were making calls to friends for suggestions, tips and advices. Least did I realize its all HIS will. By 9 we were summoned by Balaji at the Srivari Mettu which means Srivari Steps. It has only steps to climb. 2388 of them. Distance is 2.1 km.

So i was there near the board which gave the above details and did my video recording. Started climbing at 9am and reached up the hill at 11.30 chantingΒ  Govinda Govinda all the way…(it came up to a total of 5K)IMG_0187

Enroute there are fruit vendors, sodas with lime juice, bhel walas and water taps to fill our bottles. Just that the public need to be more cautious about littering the place. Self discipline is at its low. When i was resting in one of the steps a teenager girl in front of me had something to eat and just threw the plastic cover behind her. I nodded in desperation and she noticed and said sorry and said “next time” . Don’t know what came upon her, the next minuteΒ  she got up and picked the plastic cover and threw in the nearby dustbin.

now it was my duty to thank her. Felt good in being a responsible citizen.

mid way of the two thousand odd steps they have a counter, where they take your thumb impression and issue a ticket for darshan, We got ours allotted at 7pm. we relaxed mentally and then slowly climbed the other half and took rest in the room that we had booked and then went for darshan.

IMG_0211we did it with ease by HIS grace.

MORAL OF THE STORY: As HE has said, HE is there to take care of us.

MAAM EKAM SHARANAM VRAJAΒ  is what HE says… Hold on only to my feet and i shall protect.

I did, I do




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Beyond the new year personal wishes, forwards, GIFs, memes there is one thing that always lingers in the air even couple of days before the Gregorian year starts.


The commonest of one quote being

Resolutions -they are made to break!

Over the years I tried to make resolutions too and did fall prey to the breaking of it. Then I realized it does not work that way. We all have our own style of making and breaking resolutions. Some are disciplined to adhere.

So my 2019 resolution is to not make one and then feel bad about not being able to stick to it. But there are a few in my mind of which the world need not know.

2018 was fantastic. A mile stone year for me. Some best acquaintances made. Learning many things from the next generation which i consider is a blessing. Travel experiences were good. I became much more stronger and emotionally stable. Calm prevails on account of that.

Thanks to all who made my 2018 a good year.

Best wishes for a much more wonderful 2019.

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The lotus leaf trait

We all know that the lotus leaf is hydrophobic.

Its water repellent. The wax like substance that covers the leaf makes it so.

An incident occurred last night.. a very insignificant one may be, but strong enough to put me off for few hours and make my head bang at the middle of the night, and make me be up early in the morning. But i woke up with a determination to shake it off my mind by writing this post , ranting once and for all and then shut the doors on the issue.

This is the first step to achieve the lotus leaf state

Let someone else’s words or action which comes in contact with us roll off from us and in the process clear off some other dirt too along with it

My usual response at such times would be to chew and chew it endlessly and feel annoyed initially and then feel sympathetic to myself, then in the wake of it listen to a few audios or watch a few videos of BK Shivani, jaggi vasudev or for that matter anybody who speaks about how to remain calm when something unpleasant happens…

But not this time …

come on … its ME and ME ALONE who has the reigns to my mind. I don’t disrespect any of the above life coaches. They do coach, inspire but its in our hands to implement. Its time to do that. Having taken the essence of all those techniques we have heard and seen, there needs to be a day we start implementing. I did it effectively and efficiently today.

Had a nasty headache at the middle of the night due to resentment. Auto suggested to myself at that moment that its not going to be healthy for my mind soul and body. Shut the headache as well as the cause for the headache right away… yes right away… no ifs and buts …and chanted rama nama to catch up with the distorted sleep. Achieved it in no time. Woke up at 4.15. The headache was gone but the thought of what happened the last night lingered. It was time to drive it away. Sat on the bed and did all the morning spiritual rituals and reconditioned my mind that i am not going to give a damn about ‘that incident’

Yes its here that we have to give strict instructions to our mind not to dwell in self pity and think over it again and again.

Step 1: consciously stop thinking about it

Step2: Stop discussing it with anyone. My usual action is to call up my daughters and pour my heart out. This way i live in the incident that many number of times that i talk.

Step3: no harm in venting out once. Just once to some one very close and then wrap it up. Its ok in the initial stages till we achieve mastery and not to talk even to one person.

Just know that worrying and analyzing it over and over does not do any good to your soul and body

I am in the process of achieving the ‘ superhydrophobic effect’

I can do it

You can do it too…

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How many years to finish her studies?

How many daughters?

Will you be staying with her or going back ?

Whats their dad doing and if he is also traveling with you now?

“Uffffff…take a breath aunty ”

I wanted to say to that aunty who was waiting outside the loo in the aircraft. Just few minutes and we have people amongst us to dig all that is deep inside us. Shooting questions at jet speed

when will we stop intruding and poking our noses into strangers lives?

When will we learn its bad manners to shoot out so many questions when we don’t even know the person.

Everything is bad manners, questions, glaring looks, poking the person next to you to show something, repeatedly turning around and looking at some one, questioning like the above said aunty…

People need to remind themselves that they are not given the liberty to do all these.

Its bad manners in which ever part of the world you are.

Instead just smile and look away.

Tell your mind that is getting inquisitive that its none of your business to even look at a stranger from head to toe.

Behave well and spread joy and do not become a pain in the _____

Yes … for those who are wondering if i am angry.. yes i am for i am sick of these type of people


Lemonade from lemons !!!!

When life gives you lemons, make lemonade” is a proverbial phrase used to encourage optimism and a positive can-do attitude in the face of adversity or misfortune. Lemons suggest sourness or difficulty in life, while lemonade is a sweet drink.

Was watching Gaur gopal das and he was talking about how he upgraded himself from an engineer to a life coach. He said engineers fix machines, and i fix those engineers.

I may not be up to his level of fixing life for others, but surely can relate and say,

Oh that’s how I am !!!!

Those who know me, i mean know me well, don’t miss to mention how positive they feel when they talk to me

I am happy about that.

At the same being positive is not rocket science.

Just a small mantra to yourself everyday, and you too will be a life coach in some time. I swear by that…

Wake up with that sense of gratitude to the almighty

See only the good in everything

Offer a silent prayer for the food you put in your mouth, for the car you drive, for the place you live.

Nobody gets everything in life. Your bench mark is different from mine .

Don’t compare materialistic things with others. Health and peace of mind are incomparable.

Talk to people if you feel low. But don’t talk only when you feel low.

Don’t cling to people and make them your emotional slave nor you be one to them. (I have the best of friends where we don’t talk for months together and still out friendship is alive)!!!

Don’t read between lines, words and syllables. Don’t red the intonations of what people say.

Dial the no and call a friend or relative just to say hi

The world is now busy with whats app… Your call will be appreciated and touch the soul of the person called !πŸ‘

Give it a try !

P.S. i am.not presently available in my india no. In case you are trying g to call me 😣

Available for further motivation consultations !!!!


Amber alert 🚨 πŸš¨πŸš¨

That alert sound calls your attention wherever and what ever you are doing. Your phone is auto activated for this service here in the US. The first time it blared I was watching Tv and didn’t know what to do. Was searching for some sort of STOP button to put off the sound but couldn’t and eventually it stopped.

When asked my daughter about it she said

Oh yes Amma, it sends these alert messages when there is some untoward incident happening around. I will put it on silent for you !!!

Frankly I was awed at the service.

That way there are so many things here to “awe” at !

That’s when my blogger mind started thinking πŸ€”

What if there was an amber 🚨 facility in our body???

But it should truly alert us instead of telling

us such and such a thing just happened.

And since it’s an “alert”… we need it only for the flop side of issues.

Right from the time we pass out of formal education

We should have an amber 🚨 for:

Bad day with boss

Bad time with colleagues

Getting a pink slip

Bad times that are short and longer

Now given my nature , I am not able to think of too many flop points. So to my convenience I will use it for the flip side and bright side of life

Oh my my …. how will it sound /feel when there is an amber 🚨 to tell you

  1. Hey you did it …. your exam results are out and you got a distinction!
  2. You landed yourself in this coveted job!
  3. Your first pay check is due today !
  4. The love of your life is this !πŸ‘¨πŸ»/πŸ‘©πŸ»(as a parent wish I can see this )
  5. Hey your dream home will be built here !
  6. Your kids !!!
  7. Your contribution to society is this well done πŸ‘
  8. You will live life to the fullest and live in the moment !
  9. You are capable of handling all situations . Come on chin up !!!!
  10. Last but not the least it should blare: THIS TOO SHALL PASS

Isn’t that fascinating?



That’s the journey set out in the golden jubilee year of my birth!!!

A long journey , After lots of anxious moments, faith, prayers and loads of hope in heart we started on our journey.

Bunch of youngsters welcomed us and weather was bad. But we kept up the mood at home as we were back as family together .

Life is easy and tough at the same time in this place.

A new experience for me in this land

Confident it will be smooth and memorable

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Daughter says….

When your baby’s words resonate with your own it brings tears

There is pride in fulfilling the duty or the assignment given to me as a mom when i read each and every word of the post . I know throughly that her words are not just superficial and is from the bottom of the heart, from her own experience in life.

May almighty keep her always like this…

Click on the above link to read what she has penned, may be it will make you smile 😊

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It’s different…

I thought  I will share some of the funny, not so funny and whats funny about it things i do ….

I learn from many too ….

At some point or the other in life we would have copied someone in a mannerism, habit or style. 

I am no exception. 

I do quite a few things like someone else and as long as it’s not harmful to me or the society i live in i am ok with it… What do you say ?

Today i tried wearing my specs while having bath as my daughter in law does (for those who know me must be wondering from where did i get a son… Keep wondering and i shall answer in private if you are still keen to decipher )😊😊

She says, “i need to see the dirt is removed na ” 

I am still wondering whether she feels she is that dirty or she has a microscope in the place of regular glasses…Either ways, i found it a little disturbing to have the glasses on while bathing ..May be if you get used to it you can… 

My aunt uses the paper clip to hold her saree pleats in place..5 mins craft people and Life hacks with paper clips are yet to know this !!So ..Some days i just use that in place of artistic brooches…

I read somewhere that you need to stand under the shower and raise both your palms facing upward and receive all the positive energy and bring your hands down motioning towards your feet for the energy to be transmitted …. I do this once in a while though I am not sure if it really helps.. but I am calm and happy (so probably it works)!

Can’t miss mentioning about the innumerable cooking tips and menu planning that i ape from my insta friends.

Now comes the interesting part …

I was always attracted to aesthetic dressing and have been strongly following  it too

When I stopped covering my beautiful silver strands and almost the whole world was devastated by my act, and in the 

” India wants to know” 

sort of situation, (infact i came to know people from the US called up their relatives here and enquired)

(no i am not joking) 

I decide to be myself and stick to my decision and glared at Sudha Murthy, and few other ladies who gracefully carry themselves. 
So…. What is it that you try to copy from someone else…. 

Let me know !!


Crochet reminder!!!

Ripple ….My alltime favourite pattern in crochet. I really don’t get bored by repeatedly doing this. This time it’s a bigger ripple. To fit the double bed…🀣

So goes without saying that there are going to be a couple of times that I may have to rip a line or two if I make mistakes, lose count etc…I do it very carefully..

When I told hubby dearest that after finishing a line, I realized by the end of the second line that there is a mistake in the previous one and I will have to rip it to set it right , he saluted me for the patience. 

My reply was , but the end product is going to be beautiful isn’t it…So I need to do the ripping ….

That moment this blog post took birth

Isn’t that the same in life?

When talking to a friend , I said, 

Some relations are like our crochet projects. We need to rip ourselves apart if we need to have a lovely long lasting relationship!!!!

Now I bet you can’t identify that extra stitch that caused some disruption…I mended. (That stitches still there.) I mend/bend now a days only if it’s necessary. I have learnt to ignore that one stitch if it’s not going to create a hole. 


Rip yourself only for those relationships that are worthy. The blogger and the blog post will not be responsible for any crater created in your ❀️!!!!

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